Some days, I feel like I am not geeky enough to be writing a blog in this niche.
And I don't mean geeky in any negative sort of way, because to me, being geeky is a good thing, especially in this particular blogging niche, after all, writing about Pop Culture takes a certain amount of obsession.
I think the thing that brought this to a head for me was reading Samuraifrog's admission that in his lifetime he has seen conservatively 6500 films, and there are other fellow bloggers who have a similar mastery of a particular subject matter which makes me feel less than stellar about my own place as an observer/critic of popular culture. I can't really stack up to that.
I mean, I don't read comics or graphic novels, my exposure to new music has largely been whittled down to the rarely to occasionally end of the survey scales over the past couple of years and frankly, in matters of taste, well, I would hardly call myself ultrasophisticated. I do have my moments, but I am certainly not the person I was when I was 21, the one who had an opinion on everything, and was more than happy to share it with everyone, and now, I am full of hesitation. In the end, that likely avoids a lot of conflict, but at the same time, it also avoids getting at the meat of certain issues and I think that is a real weakness in my style, because if I am not really bring anything unique from my cultural background, I should at least be delivering on this front, but alas, that is also something I feel I am not doing.
I know that I shouldn't compare myself with you, my peers, but at times, it is hard not to, even though blogging is a very personal experience.
And no, I am not trying to solicit your sympathy by writing this or fishing for compliments. I am merely stating some of my own insecurities in the hope that it would make me feel a little better, because I usually end up doing a post like this 2 or 3 times a year.
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